Blooming Thoughts

This week I decided to do something a little different. This week I am going to discuss 10 life lessons that I have learned. I feel as though as we go about our life, we learn so many things but only the big ones stand out and apply to our every day lives. 1. Stop caring about what others think about you. This one was a hard one to learn, growing up, especially as a girl, we are taught to think about what someone else would think of whatever our actions, goals, or the things we wear. We are told that other people's opinions of us matter. But this really proves to not be true. It is truly about what we think about ourselves that matters. When I was younger, up until a few years ago, I cared so much about what other people thought about me. I stressed over it and would be so hard on myself thinking about all the negative things about myself and that everyone was going to see those things and not like me. But, my therapist told me until you stop caring about what other people think ab

Hello all. Welcome to my new segment called Blooming Thoughts Thursday where I post a blog every Thursday. This week we will be talking about the ins and outs of my blog! I started this blog after stopping my last blog. I had a blog a while back that was focused on various things, mostly my story of my experiences.  When starting this blog I did not want to drag out my story, although I am sure that it does pull in more readers. I made one post that explains all I have been through. I am sure that I might write more pieces about mental health, but it will not be the main topic. I wanted to make this blog to share that story I never finished, but also just to engage with people, and discuss various things in my world. I want to write about plants as I love my garden, photography (plug for Jacasa June Photography), books, and much more. I love writing and feel as though this is something that can get my creative juices going for writing. Many do not know this but I have always wanted to

Hi all, just wanted to start posting more about reading. I just finished the book Turtles All the Way Down by John Green. That book is about mental health. A young girl and her friend are in search of a billionaire who has gone missing. The book gives a really great depiction of how it feels to have OCD. Although I am sure that the disorder is different for everyone, I felt that it really helped the reader to feel what the character was going through and feeling. It was a really great and somewhat short read. Highly recommend. Currently I am reading Something in the Water by Catherine Steadman. This book is about a couple who goes on their honeymoon to Bora Bora when they discover something in the water while scuba diving. This one is a thriller and so far is a very good read. The book starts off strong and has continued to keep me interested. So far, I recommend! I look forward to posting updates on what I am reading and my hope is to get more people to read. Reading can raise your IQ

As I have mentioned before in previous blogs, I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD), Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD), and Generalized Anxiety Disorder. We can often become misinformed about what personality disorder are, label people as crazy, dismiss them, or treat them differently. Overall, people with any kind of mental health disorders are just people. Our brains produce different chemical levels and therefore causes us to think differently or act differently. It is also important to keep in mind that not every person is the same even if they have the same disorder as someone else, everyone is effected differently.   BPD is usually caused by some form of childhood trauma. For me this was formed from my adoption. There wasn't anything about the actual adoption itself but about the fact that my biological father chose to walk away. Although it isn't about me in particular but more about that he probably wasn't ready to be a father at such a youn

Some of my readers may not know who I am, so let me tell you a little about myself... I grew up in a small town in upstate New York called Norwich, NY. I enjoy the feel of a small town, how you know everyone you see and the sense of community. I graduated from Norwich High School in 2015. I then attended Cazenovia College, which is actually closed down now. I was majoring in graphic design. My next year I realized that was never going to use my degree, so I ended up not returning. After leaving I ended up getting married at 19, which is a disaster for a whole other time. We ended up losing his mom unexpectedly, which was who we were living with at the time. So, we both moved out to Ohio to go live with his adoptive parents. After that inevitably ended and moving back and forth twice, I ended up back in Norwich. This was one of the worst times of my life. I had lost who I was and was not ready to find myself yet. I burned a lot of bridges and made a lot of mistakes during this time. I m

Hi there all. I just thought I would share some things that have helped me in the healing process.  Almost 3 years ago now I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, PTSD, and generalized anxiety disorder. Which used to effect my every day life very heavily but now I barely notice. Throughout therapy I had to learn tools to overcome most of my thought processes. I learned healthy thought processes to rewrite the old ones.  I started to do things for myself, things that make me happy and stopped worrying about what everyone else wants for me. I also learned to stop caring what others thought of me. This is a lot easier said than done but other people will always have their own opinions, but it’s what you think of yourself that really matters.  I learned that my emotions are valid and that I should listen to them and talk to someone about it even if that someone is just a journal. Journaling is a great way to get out your emotions. It also is great to look back and realize you