As someone who lives with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD), I know that it can be hard to understand what that might look like on a daily. On a day where I might be particularly struggling, even getting out of bed is extremely difficult. I often with overanalyze every single thing happening in my life. Sleep becomes an escape from reality and the real or imagined problems in my world. I often will have insomnia from anxiety that never shuts off. I will replay conversations and situations. Thankfully melatonin helps with that. If you are someone who has never experienced depression/anxiety/mental health issues, consider yourself lucky because it can feel like drowning quietly. Stress can cause me to be triggered and even the smallest things can set me over the edge. It is like that bad day you have when you feel so overwhelmed that if one more thing happens you will just lose it, then you stub your toe. That is like how it feels on a daily. When big stressors come into my life, I...
A Background Built in Faith As a child, I grew up with Catholic grandparents. They wanted me to be involved in the church, and so I was. I was baptized Catholic and attended both Sunday school and Catholic school. But as time went on, I started to question my faith. As a family, we went to church only on major holidays such as easter and Christmas. I felt church was so long as a child, we were there for hours. I went as far as to get my first communion but stopped there. The older I got the farther I got from my faith. As bad things started to happen in my life, I started questioning God. I thought, how could God let so many bad things happen? I felt that I had tried to be a good person, so why was I experiencing such hardship? I later went through so much that I got to the point of not wanting to live anymore. I knew that I needed help, which I got mental health help from my therapist, but what about my soul? I felt so lost and that I was floundering trying to find the why of ...