Hi there my faithful followers. I have not posted in a long time. I am sincerely sorry for that. Life has been super busy lately. Here is an update on how life has been going: I took a year off of college in order to work as I needed to afford to pay off my college bill. During that time, I started to substitute teach. I subbed at two districts. Then I got offered a long term subbing position, which I gladly accepted. It is due to my career that I have chosen to make my blog posts anonymous from here on out. The people who have been following me right along and those on my social media will know whom I truly am. But I am choosing to stay anonymous to the rest. I want to continue to create content and not have it interfere with my job. From now on, I will be releasing blogs every Thursday at 9 am starting tomorrow. I already have it scheduled to be released, so I look forward to you all reading it! I am happy to get back to blogging. I have been also working on myself along the way...
As someone who lives with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD), I know that it can be hard to understand what that might look like on a daily. On a day where I might be particularly struggling, even getting out of bed is extremely difficult. I often with overanalyze every single thing happening in my life. Sleep becomes an escape from reality and the real or imagined problems in my world. I often will have insomnia from anxiety that never shuts off. I will replay conversations and situations. Thankfully melatonin helps with that. If you are someone who has never experienced depression/anxiety/mental health issues, consider yourself lucky because it can feel like drowning quietly. Stress can cause me to be triggered and even the smallest things can set me over the edge. It is like that bad day you have when you feel so overwhelmed that if one more thing happens you will just lose it, then you stub your toe. That is like how it feels on a daily. When big stressors come into my life, I...