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 When the Answer Isn’t Obvious     We have all met those people who are just a walking red flag... But what about when it isn't as obvious. My previous relationship was much this way. The relationship started out great. He bought me flowers randomly, wrote me love letters and mailed them to me, and never let me question whether or not I was loved. But there was a huge problem, there were also red flags.     Along with all the lovely things that he did, there was also many things that he did that were just plain wrong. He wanted all of my time. If I spent time with anyone else, I would be greeted with many texts asking when I was going to be home, that he missed me and wanted me home. I had experience with controlling relationships in the past, so I ignored the texts and told him that I would be home when I was done spending time with my friend. I had honestly never met anyone so needy in my life.  I understood why he was that way though, he had been cheated...
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And We Are Back

Hi there my faithful followers. I have not posted in a long time. I am sincerely sorry for that. Life has been super busy lately. Here is an update on how life has been going: I took a year off of college in order to work as I needed to afford to pay off my college bill. During that time, I started to substitute teach. I subbed at two districts. Then I got offered a long term subbing position, which I gladly accepted. It is due to my career that I have chosen to make my blog posts anonymous from here on out. The people who have been following me right along and those on my social media will know whom I truly am. But I am choosing to stay anonymous to the rest. I want to continue to create content and not have it interfere with my job.  From now on, I will be releasing blogs every Thursday at 9 am starting tomorrow. I already have it scheduled to be released, so I look forward to you all reading it! I am happy to get back to blogging. I have been also working on myself along the way...
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Living with Borderline Personality Disorder: The Storm, the Sun, and Everything Between

As someone who lives with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD), I know that it can be hard to understand what that might look like on a daily. On a day where I might be particularly struggling, even getting out of bed is extremely difficult. I often with overanalyze every single thing happening in my life. Sleep becomes an escape from reality and the real or imagined problems in my world. I often will have insomnia from anxiety that never shuts off. I will replay conversations and situations. Thankfully melatonin helps with that. If you are someone who has never experienced depression/anxiety/mental health issues, consider yourself lucky because it can feel like drowning quietly. Stress can cause me to be triggered and even the smallest things can set me over the edge. It is like that bad day you have when you feel so overwhelmed that if one more thing happens you will just lose it, then you stub your toe. That is like how it feels on a daily. When big stressors come into my life, I...
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Coming Home to Faith: How I Found My Way Back to God and Myself

  A Background Built in Faith As a child, I grew up with Catholic grandparents. They wanted me to be involved in the church, and so I was. I was baptized Catholic and attended both Sunday school and Catholic school. But as time went on, I started to question my faith. As a family, we went to church only on major holidays such as easter and Christmas. I felt church was so long as a child, we were there for hours. I went as far as to get my first communion but stopped there. The older I got the farther I got from my faith. As bad things started to happen in my life, I started questioning God. I thought, how could God let so many bad things happen? I felt that I had tried to be a good person, so why was I experiencing such hardship? I later went through so much that I got to the point of not wanting to live anymore. I knew that I needed help, which I got mental health help from my therapist, but what about my soul? I felt so lost and that I was floundering trying to find the why of ...
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