Blooming Thoughts

Hi everyone! Welcome back to those who have read any of my previous blogs. Welcome to first time readers! If you’ve been with me, you may know my story about my previous experiences in life. If not, I encourage you click here to read one of my previous blog posts in which explains what happened to inspire this current blog post.   What is a narcissist? Anyways, let’s get back to it. So, what exactly is a narcissist? A narcissist is defined as a person who is overly self-involved; and often vain and selfish. I know this is kind of vague. To get a better understanding I will go over what behaviors and signs will be displayed if you come across someone who may be a narcissist.     Signs of Narcissism - lack of empathy - need for admiration - willingness to exploit others - entitlement - not taking responsibility for own actions, instead always putting blame on others - refusing to admit to being wrong, even if they are presented with evidence that th...

Dear Reader, If you are reading this, maybe you are a follower of my blogs, or perhaps you're reading this because you are at your breaking point and are looking for a reason to keep going. Well, if you are either of those, I am glad you are here.  Throughout my life, I have had many, many times that I have felt like giving up. There have been many times that I felt as though the world would be better off without me. I know many readers do not feel comfortable when they read/hear those kinds of things. But these are my truths. There have been many times that I have looked in the mirror and said horrible things to myself, such as calling myself those little words that cut like a knife: ugly, fat, stupid, lazy, failure, waste of space, worthless, useless, not worthy, crazy, weak... the list goes on forever.  But now when I look at myself I see someone who is beautiful (for the most part, I still have my insecurities, of course), compassionate, caring, hard-working, independent, ...

This week I decided to do something a little different. This week I am going to discuss 10 life lessons that I have learned. I feel as though as we go about our life, we learn so many things but only the big ones stand out and apply to our every day lives. 1. Stop caring about what others think about you. This one was a hard one to learn, growing up, especially as a girl, we are taught to think about what someone else would think of whatever our actions, goals, or the things we wear. We are told that other people's opinions of us matter. But this really proves to not be true. It is truly about what we think about ourselves that matters. When I was younger, up until a few years ago, I cared so much about what other people thought about me. I stressed over it and would be so hard on myself thinking about all the negative things about myself and that everyone was going to see those things and not like me. But, my therapist told me until you stop caring about what other people think ab...

Hello all. Welcome to my new segment called Blooming Thoughts Thursday where I post a blog every Thursday. This week we will be talking about the ins and outs of my blog! I started this blog after stopping my last blog. I had a blog a while back that was focused on various things, mostly my story of my experiences.  When starting this blog I did not want to drag out my story, although I am sure that it does pull in more readers. I made one post that explains all I have been through. I am sure that I might write more pieces about mental health, but it will not be the main topic. I wanted to make this blog to share that story I never finished, but also just to engage with people, and discuss various things in my world. I want to write about plants as I love my garden, photography (plug for Jacasa June Photography), books, and much more. I love writing and feel as though this is something that can get my creative juices going for writing. Many do not know this but I have always w...

Hi all, just wanted to start posting more about reading. I just finished the book Turtles All the Way Down by John Green. That book is about mental health. A young girl and her friend are in search of a billionaire who has gone missing. The book gives a really great depiction of how it feels to have OCD. Although I am sure that the disorder is different for everyone, I felt that it really helped the reader to feel what the character was going through and feeling. It was a really great and somewhat short read. Highly recommend. Currently I am reading Something in the Water by Catherine Steadman. This book is about a couple who goes on their honeymoon to Bora Bora when they discover something in the water while scuba diving. This one is a thriller and so far is a very good read. The book starts off strong and has continued to keep me interested. So far, I recommend! I look forward to posting updates on what I am reading and my hope is to get more people to read. Reading can raise your IQ...

As I have mentioned before in previous blogs, I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD), Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD), and Generalized Anxiety Disorder. We can often become misinformed about what personality disorder are, label people as crazy, dismiss them, or treat them differently. Overall, people with any kind of mental health disorders are just people. Our brains produce different chemical levels and therefore causes us to think differently or act differently. It is also important to keep in mind that not every person is the same even if they have the same disorder as someone else, everyone is effected differently.   BPD is usually caused by some form of childhood trauma. For me this was formed from my adoption. There wasn't anything about the actual adoption itself but about the fact that my biological father chose to walk away. Although it isn't about me in particular but more about that he probably wasn't ready to be a father at such a yo...